Just like every other blog that's a mishmash of fandoms, except I write and draw stuff too. Current ones include Tolkienverse, Marvel, Welcome to Night Vale, Supernatural and Roosterteeth. I also deface the works of Shakespeare by translating them into Homestuck.
Royalheather on AO3, deviantArt and Flight Rising (id#38181).
Long live the king.
I got nine lives
Usin’ every one of them and runnin’ wild
15 styles of distorted thinking
if you are not on guard for these they will own you.
yes, i mean you. i mean me. i mean everyone.
my main fallacies are catastrophizing, personalizing, and should-ing. in my more passive-aggressive years, the heaven’s reward fallacy was big too.
my worst one is an odd permutation of the fallacy of internal control: It Is My Job To Be Okay, and i am the Responsible One, the Strong One, i’m the guy who has to go to the wall for anyone in need. it’s ok for others to be weak, to make mistakes, to be unable to cope. but not for me.
for instance, i can only ask for help if i know specifically what help i need, ask someone who is capable of providing it, ask at a time when they’re capable of providing it, and make full use of it.
so i’m not blaming myself for things outside my control, really, or trying to take responsibility for others’ lives, i don’t think. but i expect myself to be in complete and total control of my own life at all times. and no one can do that. it’s not possible.
Yyyyeah, this stuff is what my cognitive therapy exercises are for. I am guilty of filtering, overgeneralization, catastrophizing, personalizing, and emotional reasoning. It’s nice that these thoughts have names—it keeps it all from becoming one big tangle of anxiety and self-loathing and depressive spirals. And sometimes being able to single out a fussy train of thought as something that’s a tendency for my brain to think helps cement the idea that it’s just a thought, it’s not true, it’s just thinking.
It’s an enormous struggle, keeping all that in mind, but it does a lot of good.
Misha explains where he finds inspiration during rough times. [x]